Where did the love go?
the courtship and flowers,
laughter and loving, nuturing for hours?

Pain racked body laying on the floor.
Mind in a haze, wondering will there be more?
When did this start? How did I get here?
Love turned to fear hate in reflections.

Days turned into nightmares of fear.
Waiting, wondering will this set off his anger?
First came the slapping, then punching came next.
Ridcule, anger, and all the rest.

Laying here wondering, where do I go?
No one's there to help me I'm so afraid you know.
Frozen in choices, I don't know how to make.
Tears slidding down, oh dear God how I ache.

It's dawning upon me, this life I cannot live.
Freedom awaits me, by choices I make.
First step is awakening my moments in time.
I can do this, dear Lord, please be at my side.

I am worth much more God then just what I am,
help me, guide me, to do the best that I can.
Loves lost, passions gone. Nothing remains.
Picking myself up now. Nothing here remains,
no past, no future. I accept my present here.

Opening the door, to make freedom so dear.
Thoughts, feelings, emotions, frozen in time.
Choices, I make are for me this time.

You see? there is nothing left here.


Gwenn A. Lewis copyright 2001